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[Apr. 18th, 2008|08:57 pm] |
I had a really really good day today
up until Lily ate some of my meds
shes okay now
but i think im like traumatized for life |
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| American Idle |
[Apr. 9th, 2008|08:38 pm] |
haha it was a stupid title for this post but w/e.
I'm watching American Idol, and I know that they've been doing the American Idol Gives Back thing for only two years, but what I don't understand is that we're not focusing on REALLY REALLY important topics such as global warming.
Its not that I don't appreciate what they're doing for Africa and every disaster that has happened in the past two years, but it's like, why can't we start doing something about global warming, when theres already things being done for all these horrible things happening in the world.
I don't want to grow up knowing that we could have done something earlier to prevent a gigantic disaster. I'd rather have a zombie invasion than global warming. I'm so fucking wierd. lol. |
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| I miss the 90s |
[Apr. 9th, 2008|02:58 am] |
I'm almost twenty years old damnit. I'm not even excited. I mean, yeah one more year left and I can buy all the booze I want. But I'm sad that I'm leaving the teenage years, and totally distancing myself from my childhood. I've realized that throughout the years I've been learning stuff that has made my mind less innocent and naive as I used to be. Everything that has happened in these past three years gave me a whole new outlook on life. WE NEED TO SAVE OUR INNOCENCE.
I am deeply concerned for the younger generations in todays society too. For example my younger brother Nick knows EVERYTHING that I didn't know until high school (for example: cunt, pussy, fag, fuck, motherfucker, shit, and the list will go on and on and on). and pretty much every elementary school kid owns a cellphone. eww.
I'm just scared that kids are becoming more aware of society such as a 7 year old girl who wears short shorts, or little kids singing rap songs. I just hate how innocence is disappearing as we "move on" as a culture.
I swear to God I sound like Holden. But its true. I hate the adult world that exists today and I'm scared of entering it. It's all money hungry people trying to get their way to the top by manipulating and cheating and lying and faking themselves. Thank god my parents arent those types. I just wish I could live in a world where I meet more people that I can trust. People who wouldn't lie or cheat to you,...but we don't. I'm just not 100% sure I'm going to be happy about what the worlds going to be like in the next couple of years..
I'd rather trust Hillary for President too though. I mean her husband was president during the 90s, and life was perfect. Its the perfect answer to a crappy government. If a Clinton helped once, they can help again.
obammas stupidddd |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 7th, 2008|04:45 pm] |
So MTV called me today
because I recently wrote my story to their new show "frenemies"
and they want mine to be on it. However I am not 100% sure if I still want to do it, considering this happened so long ago. And plus I'm probably going to need the other person's permission, and without this person I don't think they would be possible to show it on TV.
I mean it would be cool to have my 15 minutes of fame
but Idk |
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| (no subject) |
[Apr. 5th, 2008|02:15 pm] |
wow it's been so long.
and my birthday is soon
ahh.
I'm glad I got rid of your fat ass boyfriend. Although that also means loosing you, what can I care. You're selfish and think that it's only about you two.
well I hope your children are 500 pounds overweight and that he still has a bad gambling problem that fores your family to go into bankruptcy
there i said it. |
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[Feb. 22nd, 2008|12:06 am] |
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let me know if you want to join me to the city on march 15. |
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| Long Overdue Open letter... |
[Feb. 14th, 2008|01:56 pm] |
Although it's a little too late, It's still hard to forget...
it's probably only been a month, but I've realized something during this "detoxification" process. I don't know how it's so easy for some people.
I've realized that the people who have used me/abused me mentally and physically have a number of insecurities about themselves. These insecurities eventually lead to the total denial of the fact that they have their own problems.
I'm not saying I have insecurities about myself. I fucking know I do. I have problems handling my tinnitis, I have insecurities about the way I look sometimes, I'm still figuring out my sexuality, I have problems getting over the good times I had before I realized I was a joke to some, and overall I'm still getting out of the hole that I was in a year ago.The only difference between me and those who have hurt me, is that I'm okay with these insecurities.
I act like myself, and never once in my life have I ever tried to be someone I'm not (except for acting a part), or use someone, even though some hypocritical people forced themselves to believe that's the case. I don't live by anyone else's way of life except my own.
And after all that has happened in my life, I'm glad that these things happened. It made me a stronger person. I've realized that while they may have won those battles, I have won the war. |
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| (no subject) |
[Feb. 4th, 2008|05:49 pm] |
I wish I was never depressed.
I wish I had a life.
I wish I never went to Hartwick.
I wish that people would stop taking advantage of me.
I wish I never met Alex and Carmen.
when the fuck am I going to be happy again. |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 26th, 2008|11:35 am] |
my parents always have to fuck with me
first it was "I want a dog" NOOOOo
now that they're deciding to get one I say why not a German Shepherd (because it is totally perfect for my family)
NOOO ITS TOO BIG
Hi parents if you remember we live in a VERY big house?
fuckheads |
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| (no subject) |
[Jan. 15th, 2008|03:12 pm] |
It's so hard to forget about you
I wish you were feeling the same thing |
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